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The day I saw you, I had the feeling.
I began to know you and it set me thinking.
I kept my distance because it was right,
but all I could do was merely watching you cried.
My heart goes out to you,
and I already knew,
one day a beautiful dream will begin,
to make you forget where you've been.
What you are missing,
I will restore,
and I will pick you from where you fall.
You will find yourself again,
and none of that sorrow will remain.
But like all dreams regardless of good or bad,
it will end and you'll be sad.
I cannot remove your pain,
but I can replace it.
In the end you'll find yourself in sorrow again.
Therefore I try really hard,
to be just a friend.
When there's none you can turn to,
I'll be there for you.
I will appear when you need,
during your joy I will leave.
I wanted to be someone special,
whom you'll feel is truly real.
Yet my heart is only human,
and I could not stop myself.
I decided to cross the line,
and you took it as a sign.
There's no turning back for me,
when my heart is already given.
Though I feel that it is hard,
I try my best to capture your heart.
I hope one day you'll see me like a drug,
one which you heart can't do without.
I am not certain if I can break,
this dreadful end like a chain of fate.
But I am more than wiling to give it a go,
to bring us to the day which we are blessed to behold.
Then I'll look back and start laughing,
the fears that turned nought and the pains we've fought.
I began to know you and it set me thinking.
I kept my distance because it was right,
but all I could do was merely watching you cried.
My heart goes out to you,
and I already knew,
one day a beautiful dream will begin,
to make you forget where you've been.
What you are missing,
I will restore,
and I will pick you from where you fall.
You will find yourself again,
and none of that sorrow will remain.
But like all dreams regardless of good or bad,
it will end and you'll be sad.
I cannot remove your pain,
but I can replace it.
In the end you'll find yourself in sorrow again.
Therefore I try really hard,
to be just a friend.
When there's none you can turn to,
I'll be there for you.
I will appear when you need,
during your joy I will leave.
I wanted to be someone special,
whom you'll feel is truly real.
Yet my heart is only human,
and I could not stop myself.
I decided to cross the line,
and you took it as a sign.
There's no turning back for me,
when my heart is already given.
Though I feel that it is hard,
I try my best to capture your heart.
I hope one day you'll see me like a drug,
one which you heart can't do without.
I am not certain if I can break,
this dreadful end like a chain of fate.
But I am more than wiling to give it a go,
to bring us to the day which we are blessed to behold.
Then I'll look back and start laughing,
the fears that turned nought and the pains we've fought.
posted by Boon at 9:10 PM
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Just so you know my dearest homie, I happened to chanced upon this blog of yours and this particular post sometime back last year when we got close to each other just a couple of weeks or a mth or two. I don't know but I somehow feel that, that was me you're talking about. I could still rememeber vividly how my tears rolled down from my eyes. That very deep pool like how you'ld always tell me how very much it makes you wanna dived in to see what's all that's inside.
I've lost count of the times I find myself coming back here to seek console and ease whenever I was at a lost or I find us breaking apart. It never fails to give me the courage and strength to push on with you. And only you.. Do you remember asking me just what makes me gave us both the chance to even begin? I bet it's something you'ld have never thought or even believe. And it's not like I never had the strong urge to tell you what I've discovered here. I always know that there'll come a day when I'll just come to you to talk 'bout this post, your very sacred thoughts. At least to me, they (the words) have always remained that pure and precious. I've always liked you very much as a person. I've never like a guy so much just as a friend. You are that one person I found and feel connected with for all the times I've died n reborned as a whole new individual trying to face the toughest days ahead in what we're all in it, Life. You may find me very complexed and difficult as days that passed and draw us closer to each other. But I must always remind myself that what made me feel like you could be the one who can handle me after all the failed dates and r/s I've went through are just these very simple words and thoughts about you. I find myself trying harder to love you more than myself every day. Because in my heart you always deaserved to have that one person to do that for you. Just like how I feel about myself. Because we know we are different from the rest. I still love you or maybe even more even though it seems to me that life gets harder for us. And so, for all the thoughtless words and actions coming out from you to me only makes me feel the constant pain. It is tearing me apart. And I know you feel the same. I am sorry for always picking on you. But know that for all the times I did that, I loved you just as much and it will never deplete. It makes me love you more when you show signs of alteration. You'll never know just how glad and thankful I am for the day to even come just by knowing you, for I'll never say. But I am, really! Having you in my life just makes me feel that all the wrong things can go right again. I never wanna lose you because I know that it takes so much for just two people to meet in God very own plan and preparation. Life for me have always been a roller coaster ride. The highs were grand and the lows threatened to break everything I could ever hold on to. But somehow, I can never really deal properly with the lows. Never really learnt how to. So for all the times you had mi tough, I probably was guarding my heart as I walked.
I've always been one to follow my heart. When the worst happened for you, my heart told me that the path ahead (with you) would not be an easy one. There would be ups and downs, but there would also be a happiness I wouldn't experience otherwise. And so, I followed my heart.
The setbacks that never failed to leave us left me in brokenness. But for every time you took your leave, I left my heart with you. In hopefullness that you'll always come back for me to fix me in time like how you never thought I could make you leave that many times right at the very beginning. I never was any good at goodbyes. I'm still not. And I know that just one word from you, to let's just leave all the brokenness behind here on this very special and sad day of mine would give me all the reasons and strength to continue and push on. Which I always yearned to hear but it never came..
I'll never wanna go through another never ending trial like what I went through 3 years ago. (All that remains, are memories of what once was, and the painful loss of what could've been.) Just, not with you. My one and only best friend, my homie, the yet to be, other half...
The worst type of pain is when it hurts so much that you can't cry.
I Love you
- Baby
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