hmmm

Now is almost 8 months into my NS life.
WOW! ORDing is becoming to look like a possibility.
So what would I do when i ORD? No idea, man. Anyway, that's still helluva long way to go.

3 months of BMT was a breeze enjoyable journey for NS standards. I won't forget all the buddies made there.

Now 9 months of officer-cadet phase and I am reaching 5 months into it. Still alright so far, but I can feel the shit and pain coming very, very soon.

Arghhh. Being made to be in charge of holding some event. Crack man. I would do it if they would give me a few days of undisturbed rest. But multi-tasking-and-responsibilities are just expectations. Anyway, it's not that hard, just that I am very lazy to do so. Some degree of uninterest.

I am currently feeling the half-fuck mood lols. So much things I wish to write down. So reluctant to type any further. So badly I wanted things to be shown here. The way I look at my situation now, comparing to all my friends, is so... wtfbbq. Comes my favorite song "I walk this empty street, on a boulevard of broken dreams. Today, is gonna be the day, that I got to throw it back to you" but I still haven't reach "By now, you should have somehow realise what you got to do"

Reflecting a bit further I realise I haven't change a bit at all. I feel exactly the same whenever I have some quality-deep-peaceful-personal-time. I guess many of us feel the same way. How alone we are. How lonely I am. From my perspective.